HELP ME ABBA FATHER

C&R CAMPHome from a three-day camping trip in Georgia, I felt determined to set my heart on hearing from God in the area of podcasting! Yes, I’m still hemming and hawing over what to do, at least I was this morning. Thankfully, in my prayer time, I heard from my Abba Father, and I’m now clear on what my next steps are, Hallelujah!

I parked myself in my folding chair, positioned just right on the balcony, leaned back to enjoy the slight breeze and the sunshine, and clicked on Dr. Charles Stanley’s message, “Why We Need Spiritual Discernment.” As I intently listened for words of wisdom from my favorite Pastor, I felt myself drift into a deeper state in order to completely open myself to whatever the Holy Spirit had to share with me. I no longer heard Dr. Stanley, the cars whisking by, the neighbors and their dogs nor the construction work on the other side of my apartment. I was zeroed in on what mattered most and that was hearing from my Heavenly Father.

Almost immediately, I heard Him whisper:

“Why don’t you get your journal from your office and write down these points that I’m about to share with you.”

I paused Dr. Charles and quickly walked into my office, found my journal and made a beeline back to my chair in the sunshine. I didn’t want to waste a minute of the Lord’s time! No sooner did I sit that I heard that very same whisper again:

“Equipment.”
“A brief rundown of the blog.”
“Where I was.”
“Where I am now.”
“Pre-recorded podcasts.”
“Tone of voice.”
“Reading.”
“Mission in doing the podcast.”

Obediently, I wrote them all down and understood completely what I was to do with each one.

After some reflection, I began to talk with Him through my writing.

Let me explain.

I find that when I write, because of the time it takes, it allows God space to talk with me and He does this as I write my words. I guess it’s kind of like a prayer but one that I can see. Often times, I will write His answer without even realizing that He’s answering until the entire thought is written out and I’ve had some time to reflect on it. As I do this, the thought becomes broader, alive and easier to grab onto.

Again, I questioned God:

“What am I trying to find out?”
“I’m trying to discern whether I’m to pay for the Podcasting Plugin?”
“Am I in your will, LORD, by doing this?”

As I’m writing this, the Lord shows me a moment that happened while my husband and I were driving into town while camping in Georgia.

It was a downpour of day! Constant rain, dark clouds, and gusts of wind. Our camper is only 21′ long and it gets awful tight in there when in it for long periods of time. I was feeling a little stir crazy, wanted to eat, aimless and in need of a good cup of coffee. I’m totally spoiled by my machine at home; The freeze-dried stuff is no longer sufficient. I suffered through a cup of tea in the wee hours of the morning but that did nothing for my coffee craving; It only multiplied as the day wore on.

We jumped into the Suburban and headed out on an excursion in search of coffee and some odds and ends from Walmart and the grocery store. As we were driving down the two-lane road, I found myself eyeing all the quaint houses sitting perfectly on their acres of grass. Country! This sort of scenery always reminds me of my grandparents back in Iowa. We used to travel all over, seeing family and friends and I just loved the views as we went from one destination to another! That old-timey feel really resonated with me then and for some reason it still does!

As I’m watching all the pretty little houses blow by my passenger window, I’m in deep thought over my podcasting dilemma. I’m remembering past conversations with God, Scripture that He’s shown me, and that awesome feeling of agreement that can only come from Him. I felt sure that I’m to persevere with it! As I’m feeling some excitement from the thought of this new adventure with God, my husband begins to sing, “This Little Light of Mine.”

I can assure you, this is not a song that often comes from the mouth of my husband. He had no idea what I was mulling over in the passenger seat which indicates to me that this moment was all God.

If you aren’t familiar with this song, I encourage you to give it a listen. My favorite part of the song goes like this:

“Don’t let Satan blow it out! I’m gonna let it shine! Don’t let Satan blow it out! I’m gonna let it shine, let it shine, let it shine!”

If you follow Our Heavenly Prize, you will remember my post, “Shine Your Light,” which has much to do with this song and the divine exchange that took place between my husband and I.

What did I take away from this?

I’m taking it as a confirmation that God is involved in the details of this podcast; He has His hand in it and He’s announcing to me not to give up. He always gives me a push whenever I intend to shut it all down. Satan has ramped up his attacks in order to persuade me to give up but God always shows up and beats him down. The desire to keep going is fanned by His holy flame which is why I felt the need to get down to business with God this morning. I need to hear HIS final answer.

Again I wrote in my journal:

“I am looking for YOU.”
“Jesus, I am asking, seeking and knocking! I’m praying for your Spiritual discernment in all areas of my life.”
“But, this morning, I’m looking for YOUR WILL in podcasting!”
“Help me follow after YOU!”

I picked up my Bible (NLT) and flipped back to the Concordance in search of discernment.

The first Scripture I’m pointed to is from Psalm 119:125 (Footnote):

Faith comes alive when we apply Scripture to our daily tasks and concerns. We need discernment so we can understand, and we need the desire to apply Scripture where we need help. The Bible is like medicine; It goes to work only when we apply it to the affected areas.

I feel that familiar alert go off within me as I read this so I grab my pen and write it down. This happens quite frequently as I read the Bible, praise God! There are certain Scriptures that I read, that speak to me and when this happens, I can’t help but write them down. And, as I previously explained, as I write there is some sort of exchange that happens spiritually, a conversation begins. I don’t fully understand what is happening but I am fully aware that the Holy Spirit is on the move, indicating, teaching, throwing seeds, planting…

As I’m writing about Psalm 119:125, my thoughts drift towards Mark 16:15 (NLT):

“and then He told them, “Go into all the world and preach the Good News to everyone.”

Isn’t this what I’m doing when I write and what I will be doing when I start my podcast?

The Footnote says:

“Do you ever feel as though you don’t have the skill or determination to be a witness for Christ?”

Yes!!

“You must personally realize that Jesus rose from the dead and lives for you today. As you grow in your relationship with Christ, He will give you both the opportunities and the inner strength to tell His message.”

As I finish writing this footnote in my journal, the Lord speaks:

“This can be done!”
“Show them that it can be done because I AM limitless!”
“What are your worries?”
“They are worries which limit my work in your life as well in the lives of others.”
“Show them it can be done BUT only by MY strength.”

Then He shows me Proverbs 1:1 (NLT Footnote):

“The book of Proverbs focuses on God. His character, works, and blessings–and it tells how we can live in close relationship to Him. It contains deep spiritual insights drawn from experience.”

I’m certainly not comparing my writing nor my future podcast to the book of Proverbs but the content that I aim to provide (in the power and strength of the Holy Spirit) is just as described in this footnote. My focus is God! My spiritual experiences with Him in the hopes that it will spurn another to look in His direction, either for the first time or on a deeper level. I want to share Him, His character, works, and blessings so that whoever reads this will be encouraged and blessed!

What I share, whether it be through writing or podcasting, is my personal testimony of what God is doing in my life! God can absolutely use this to bless another and He will. He already has! THAT’S JUST WHO GOD IS!! I’m not doing anything special but telling of my encounters with Him. He will be the one that sets my testimony on fire in the heart of another.

This is what we are told to do, share the Good News. I put no human effort or wisdom in what I write! All glory goes to God! Same will be true for the podcast.

I will step out in faith!
He will not allow me to fail!
I will not worry about tomorrow!
He will take care of tomorrow!
What a great relief?
I will only think about today?

And, with this revelation, He continues to show me more Scripture to solidify what I’ve just learned:

James 1:5 (NLT)

“If you need wisdom, ask our generous God, and He will give it to you.”

How simple is that!!

Just ask my generous God, and He will give it to me!

I will do this! He’s supplied me since November 2017 with wisdom to write blog posts! Why wouldn’t He do the same for podcasts? If my heart is in the right place, if I stick close to Him, and if I’m aligned with Him, why wouldn’t he supply me with things to say?

Proverbs 5:2 (TPT)

“so that wisdom and discernment will enter your heart and then the words you speak will express what you’ve learned.”

Heavenly Father,

Thank you that you DO supply all of our needs! Thank you that when we ask, seek and knock, you open the door. Even when the door isn’t immediately opened, there is always wisdom while waiting. You don’t waste a single moment to move mountains in our life. We may see them in a complete standstill but as we continue to trust and have faith in you, you teach us, prepare us and equip us for the moment that mountain is removed. Where would we be if we just sent up our request, you answered, the mountain vanished and there we stood. I am almost certain, we wouldn’t know what to do next. Thank you that you answer our prayers, in your own time, and in your own way. Waiting expectantly and patiently for you is truly a blessing. So, thank you for your blessing!

In Jesus’ Name,

Amen!!

 

 

 

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