PREPARATION

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Don’t be afraid, for I am with you.
Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you.
I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.

Isaiah 41:10

Sitting at the dock yesterday in quiet–reading the Bible, “My Utmost for His Highest” by Oswald Chambers and a Dr. Charles Stanley devotional.

Somewhat anxious over all these speaking engagements–assisted living community, independent living (the founding Pastors are away this week and I’m filling in) and the prayer team at the local church which I just signed on with. Am I headed in the right direction? Am I in the Will of God?

I believe God gave me the message that I’m to give at the independent living community on Thursday (Nov. 15). Debating whether to stand at the podium? What does God say to do?

I want to change it to feel more comfortable by encouraging audience participation–a closer seating arrangement so that I don’t have to feel like I’m on stage!”

The opposition is strong. I woke this morning feeling fearful in all that I’m doing. Those familiar feelings of quitting overwhelm me.

I keep hearing John (Prayer 101 leader) saying, “You have no choice but to go, Satan! You have no power here. In Jesus Name, Amen!”

I see the seriousness on John’s face, and I can feel his faith in God’s promises from way over here. I want that kind of faith. I have that kind of faith!

Do I?

Probably not!

John said in a most recent prayer that I have a job to do.

“Leave Racinda alone!”

Yes, I do have work to do, given to me by God, Himself!

“Single-mindedness!” as Paul states in the NLT Study Notes of Acts 20:24.

Focus on the mission!

Oswald Chambers says:

“…everyone who does come knows that second the supernatural life of God invades him instantly. The dominating power to the world, the flesh, and the devil is paralyzed, not by your act, but because your act has linked you to God and His redemptive power.”

We are to act!

God will meet us where we are, and He will lead the charge if we let Him.

Why do I want to change what God’s given me to suit my own needs and comforts? Why can’t I just push forward without questioning? Where is the “Send me, Lord” attitude? It’s an honor and a privilege to carry out the work of God.

At the dock yesterday, after much reading, prayer, and meditation, the Lord told me to use Dr. Stanley’s “30 Life Principals Bible Study” as a guide for the assisted living community Bible Study that I was called to lead at the end of September.

I left the dock feeling relieved until I walked into the apartment, sat down at my desk and opened the book.

The residents don’t want to hear me read! Why can’t I summarize? Why, because my nerves won’t allow my brain to hold the information or maybe my brain just can’t retain! We won’t go there–not today Satan! I’ve got a job to do!

I hear the Lord saying:

“Just do as I say and watch what happens!”

Trust exercise!!

He continues:

“This exercise will give you bigger faith to deliver the message that I’ve given you and in the way I’ve told you to do it. I’m your HELPER, remember? What was the Scripture that popped out of your mouth the other morning? It was from Isiah 41:10! It just came out! Did you make that happen? No, you did not!! This is what it’s like to allow me to work. I’m showing you what will happen when you stand at the podium, in front of the microphone and before the people. The message that came spilling out of your mouth, while you were in quiet with me, will do the very same thing as the Scripture did the other morning. You prayed that I would seal it and protect it until the day of its delivery. I’ve done that. You prayed for continued understanding, a filling of spiritual wisdom, and preparation. Haven’t I been doing this?”

“Yes, Lord!”

“Well then, what’s the problem? Do your Bible Study at the assisted living community this morning, as I told you. You read the Introduction and let the residents read Chapter One of Genesis and then ask the five questions that are supplied by Dr. Charles Stanley. Let Me do the rest! Quit trying to control the situation by doing what you think the residents need to hear. You don’t know them like I do. You don’t know what they need. I do! Come back to this journal entry, report your Bible Study results, then write what I’ve just told you on your blog.”

“Yes, please and thank you, Lord! I’m excited for all of this, especially to write again.

“One more thing, ” Jesus says, “Following the ’30 Life Principal Bible Study’ will take the pressure off of you so you can focus on the other things that I have for you!”

Why in the world am I so hard-headed?

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