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What is the meaning in this self-pity? Why do I feel off course? Why do I feel that my days of writing are over? Why do I feel like I’m on the verge of giving up? What are You trying to tell me? Open my ears, my heart, my eyes, and my spirit to what You have to say.

Are you teaching me trust? Is it even You in the midst of all this questioning? I’ve heard that when we grow stronger in our love, faith, and obedience, the devil gets angry and will change tactics to bring that person down.

Is this what is happening? Help me understand, Jesus. Help me in this battle if this is indeed a battle. I want to know so I can–so WE can put our heads together and come up with a strategy. Let me fight with you! Teach me!!

Romans 1:21-23 is called, “God’s Anger at Sin.” 

Yes, they knew God, but they wouldn’t worship Him as God or even give Him thanks. And they began to think up foolish ideas of what God was like. As a result, their minds became dark and confused. Claiming to be wise, they instead became utter fools. And instead of worshiping the glorious, ever-living God, they worshiped idols made to look like mere people and birds and animals and reptiles.

From the Study Notes for this Scripture:

They have stifled the truth God naturally reveals to all people in order to believe anything that supports their own self-centered lifestyles…God cannot tolerate sin because His nature is morally perfect. He cannot ignore or condone willful rebellion. God wants to remove the sin and restore the sinner–and He is able to, as long as the sinner does not stubbornly distort or reject the truth…Make sure you are not pursuing a lie rather than the true God. Don’t suppress the truth about Him merely to protect your own lifestyle.

How would you have me approach this? Not in my strength, but in Your Strength. This can’t be my game-plan but Yours. I don’t understand how I am to remove this?

The Lord says to me:

“You will not! You cannot!! You will HAVE to trust Me, and I will remove it. This is your exercise in trust.”

“How do I start?”

“You start by confessing and repenting of your sin, and it has to come from your heart. Pray for my deliverance from this bondage. Pray to Me to reveal the truth and follow through with what I say!”

Father God,

I have sinned! I believed the lie that as long as I abstained from certain sugars, I was following You. It was a tiny addition at the beginning which has now turned into the very same thinking that I had when I over-indulged.
I confess that sugar is an idol. I confess that food is an idol. I have wandered in my thinking, my actions, and my devotion to You. I have caused this disconnection and for this, I’m sorry!
I don’t know what comes next, but I do know that I need Your help.
I pray for your guidance! I pray for your support! I pray for understanding of the wisdom that You will supply me with because I am Your child with a greater purpose; I will carry out this purpose for Your glory, for People, and for Your Kingdom. I pray for broken chains.
I trust you, Jesus, to lead the way. Let me hear and discern every word and action that comes from you. Let no evil come against me in this time of learning. I pray for deeper love and trust in You!
I desire to follow you because I love you! My life is worth nothing without You. I want You to continue Your work in this world.
Thank you, Lord, for revealing my sin which I covered up with substitutions. I will fight on my knees, and not in my own strength; I have none!
I hear Your precious Words to me this morning!
“Start out by thanking me for the food before you. Every day renew your commitment to following my lead. Lay it down, every single day.”
Thank you, Jesus, and it’s in your Heavenly and Holy Name that I pray, Amen

Romans 3:20

For no one can ever be made right with God by doing what the law commands. The law simply shows us how sinful we are.

Study Notes from this Scripture:

We know that we are helpless sinners and that we must come to Jesus Christ for mercy. The moral code revealed in the law can serve to guide our actions by holding up God’s moral standards.

Romans 3:31

Well then, if we emphasize faith, does this mean that we can forget about the law? Of course not! In fact, only when we have faith do we truly fulfill the law.

Study Notes from Romans 1:18-20

If people suppress God’s truth in order to live their own way, they have no excuse. They know the truth and they will have to endure the consequences of ignoring it.

I am not being “good” by keeping to a “law” that I set up for myself such as in signing up for Weight Watchers, My Fitness Pal or some other weight-loss program. I’m not pleasing to God if I adhere to all the restrictions imposed upon me by these plans. I’m not favored because I’ve lost weight or because I’m relinquishing my weekly weigh-in because “weight-loss” is not my objective. This “lifestyle” change is all about God. I’m doing this in order to reconnect with Him. Wrong perspective!!

My faith in Him, to see me through, is my objective. Turning to Him daily for guidance and wisdom is where success in chain-breaking will come from. He’s not pleased because I’m following a “diet” to my own specifications. He’s pleased with me because I am, daily, putting my trust in Him.

It’s not about the food or the lack of food; it’s about relying on God, trusting Him in all things, and growing deeper in relationship with Him so that I can successfully fulfill His plans for me. Food is the teaching tool, not the problem. The problem is my lack of trust and faith in Him.

Study notes from Romans 1:18-20:

Although people may believe there is a God, they refuse to commit themselves to Him…Knowing that God exists is not enough. People must learn that God is loving and that He sent His only Son to demonstrate His love for us.

Wisdom shared with me from a fellow Christian sister:

You are tired (in reference to Spiritual Warfare) because you are fighting from your own strength. This type of fight is done through prayer and fasting. God has to give you the game-plan for you to fight. The Holy Spirit can rejuvenate you through prayer…once you stop and listen for instruction, your fight gets a little easier. We are human, so we have human reactions and responses sometimes. The key is not to stay in those feelings.

Could walking in the Will of God be so easy compared to how I’ve been determined to walk? Such simple instructions! 

Prayer of thanks and daily prayer in seeking God’s help and guidance. Laying down my tactics, listening for His, and carrying them out. Not in my own strength but in His.

Philippians 4:13

I can do all things in Christ who strengthens me!


Thank you, Jesus, for this wisdom. Help me to understand and bring all that you’ve said into fruition.

Thank you, Joyce, for your prayers! I felt them this morning! I love you!


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