“You don’t have enough faith,” Jesus told them. “I tell you the truth, if you had faith even as small as a mustard seed, you could say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it would move. Nothing would be impossible.”
I have a weekly Bible Study that I attend and the women in my group are incredibly kind and lovely. We meet online and we are currently discussing a book that our church pastor wrote. Not only do we discuss the book, we discuss what God is doing in our lives. Sometimes one of us or all of us are faced with challenges but between the three of us we are able to come to the conclusion that God is always with us and that through our faith “all will be fine.” Some nights we celebrate victories and praise God for His faithfulness. It’s a gift to be surrounded by such love and support!
Currently, I’m trying my best to follow God’s instruction in creating this blog. I find it extremely difficult to get what needs to be said onto my blank computer screen. I feel blocked, opposition and a major lack of confidence. Although it feels great to write, it also feels discouraging.
One topic we touched on in our Bible Study last night was having the faith of a mustard seed. This struck me and I continued to meditate on it this morning. Where is my faith in regards to this blog? Do I have any? Is it in me or is it in Jesus?
My Bible’s interpretation of Matthew 17:17-20 (NLT) says this:
“There is great potential in even a little faith when we trust in God’s power to act. If we feel weak or powerless as Christians, we should examine our faith, making sure we are trusting God’s power, not our own ability to produce results.”
I certainly feel weak and powerless at this moment. This assignment of a blog was handed to me a week or so ago. I remember sitting in my bed, meditating on the Word of God and the fear of putting myself out there for all to read was somewhat daunting. I’m a hider. I don’t like to share. I have no experience, I’m not confident enough. What do I have to say?
All of this self-doubt and questioning is all based on myself and it should be based on God. His Word and His saving Grace! As Christians, we are not meant to keep God to ourselves. This is where I want to keep Him. Quietly in my heart. My relationship. This isn’t how God intends His relationship with us to be.
I found myself asking, “How am I to do this Lord? Tell me and I will follow!”
How many times did I repeat this and how many times did he continue to tell me?
It wasn’t until the following day that I had much relief from my fear. Again, sitting quietly with Jesus, I heard his faithful whisper:
“I have been prepping and preparing you for quite some time. All the mornings you’ve set your alarm to get up early. All those times that you’ve carried your Bible on camping trips. All those times that you’ve thanked me and praised me throughout the day. I’ve noticed and I’ve been guiding you just to get you to this very moment.
Your quiet time routine is how you are going to write this blog. The Words that I speak to you. The revelations that I give you. These will be your blog entries. You aren’t writing it. I am! I am using you to share my Word. What do you have to be fearful about? You’ve been writing blog entries for years. You just never knew it!”
So here I am, sitting before the computer with what the Lord has placed in my heart. Faith of a mustard seed, which is exactly what I have in this moment. But you know what, that is all God requires from us. And how wonderful is this gift? We don’t need to be filled with huge faith for God to work in our lives. All we have to do is say to God that we don’t understand how this is going to work but we are willing to give you a shot. Nothing else is working, I’ve tried everything, I’m going to look towards you and see what you’ve got and He will show you. He is faithful.
As I read further in my Bible (Mark 4:31,32) I came across this explanation of a mustard seed:
“It is the smallest of all seeds, but it becomes the largest of all garden plants; it grows long branches, and birds can make nests in its shade.”
Well, Lord, I’m looking your way in regards to this assignment. I have the faith of a mustard seed. Let’s see what You can do. I trust you and I love you!!