This is day five!
My husband and I were exposed to a positive case of Covid. The one who tested positive is doing better and I am praying for a full recovery for all and also for all those in this world who are battling this disease! Lord have mercy!
Please keep my family in prayer and I will do the same for you and yours!
I must take a minute and thank God for this day of good health! By God’s powerful hand, prayer, rest, our family’s love, support and encouragement, and megadoses of vitamins, we are up and carrying out our daily responsibilities as we normally do, ever since this pandemic started. My husband is working from home and I am keeping up with my studies online. I am grateful and continue to lean and depend on God, trusting that He has a plan! He is faithful in keeping each one of us moving in a forward direction!
By the transforming work of the Holy Spirit, my perspective has changed. I can guarantee you that if this Covid exposure would have struck months earlier, my anxiety, fear, and depression would have been unbearable and debilitating! Praise God, I am looking through a biblical lens and I am overwhelmed by His miraculous touch. It truly is amazing what He can do if we invite Him in. I am ever so thankful for a new life and I imagine you are too!
John 3:16 (NKJV)
For God so loved the world that He gave
His only begotten Son, that whoever believes
in Him should not perish but have
I want to tell you what the Lord has revealed regarding my repeated offense towards Him; this is one I have struggled with and have openly shared with you in numerous blog posts. Instead of rehashing the addiction which only brings on shame and guilt, I would like to elevate and give glory, honor, praise and thanksgiving to God which is what I should be doing in the first place. How guilty I am of stealing God’s glory and placing it on me instead!
If I stray back to showcasing myself as the main character in God’s story, I am sorry! I am merely human and a work in progress! Sanctification is a lifelong process! It is not until we stand before God that full glory is reached and it is not by our own doing!
I am making my way through the Psalms and am currently reading Psalm 38, so I would like to tell you what I learned as I sat with God this morning.
According to Matthew Henry’s Commentary (1960, p. 615), Psalm 38 is a penitential psalm. It is full of David’s (the writer) griefs and complaints due to his sins; his afflictions are the cause of his grief and the matter of his complaints.
From the King James Version, Psalm 38:1-3 states David’s position and circumstance this way:
Lord, rebuke me not in thy wrath: neither
chasten me in thy hot displeasure.
For thine arrows stick fast in me, and thy
hand presseth me sore.
There is no soundness in my flesh because
of thine anger; neither is there any rest in my
bones because of my sin.
I like the way Matthew Henry’s Commentary interprets David’s anguish:
There is no soundness in my flesh because of thy anger. The bitterness of it, infused in his mind, affected his body; but that was not the worst. It caused the disquietude of his heart, by reason he forgot the courage of a soldier, the dignity of a prince, and all the cheerfulness of the sweet psalmist of Israel and roared terribly (v. 8).
I am brought to meditate on my own sins.
In Psalm 38:4, 13, and 14, David tells us:
For mine iniquities are gone over mine head…
But I, as a deaf man, heard not; and I was
as a dumb man that openeth not his mouth…
Thus I was as a man that heareth not, and
in whose mouth are no reproofs.
v. 2…thy hand presseth me sore
Can I just stop and praise God right now? Hallelujah, He does not give up on us! Hallelujah, for His correction (this is a tough one, I know! I thought of deleting it but it is in those times of correction that we are quickened towards spiritual maturity). Hallelujah, He opens our eyes, transforms our heart, and makes us brand new…out with the old by the precious blood of Jesus and in with the new! Hallelujah!
Matthew Henry’s Commentary interprets the above verses this way:
My own iniquities do correct me. It is sin, therefore, that this good man complains most of, a burden, a heavy burden (v. 4). My iniquities have gone over my head, as proud waters over a man that is sinking and drowning, or as a heavy burden upon my head, pressing me down more than I am able to bear or to bear up under. It keeps me from soaring upward and pressing forward.
Exactly! I can see the evil plans against me, people, and this world. We are chased and tormented! If we are hobbled in sin then we are fruitless for God. Satan is always scheming to swipe and run off with God’s glory.
How do you withstand and escape? Confess with your mouth “Jesus is Lord” and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved (Romans 10:9-10) and then you must love the Lord with all your heart, soul, mind, and strength and love your neighbor as you love yourself (Matthew 22:37-39).
I have certainly fallen into the devil’s trap time after time after time! What is his motive? It is to press us down and to keep us from soaring upward and pressing forward. He wants to paralyze us in fear, anxiety, depression, and addiction (just to name a few) so that we are ineffective in God’s plan of restoration!
David writes about his mouth of no reproofs (v. 14). Do I open my mouth and call out to God at the suggestion of temptation? Believers, this is how we fight back. It is so simple to call out to God but we make it so difficult. Our cry to God is our weapon of defense! It does not matter if we are standing firm in prayer, reading Scripture in agreement to His Word, or singing praises and thanksgiving to the One who saved us from sin and death. Our part of the fight is to open our mouths and call on God. He will take care of the rest!
In reflecting on past sins, I called out nothing! In the constant assaults, where was my heart positioned? Did I truly want His help? Unconfessed sin separates us from God and I do not want to be distant from God nor held under by the heavy burden of sin. I want to soar! I pray that we are moved by God to confess and repent, that He would show us our wrongdoings so we can sit quietly before Him and have a conversation. He welcomes us back without question, forgives, and forgets! Hallelujah!
Matthew Henry’s Commentary describes sin like this:
Sins are wounds (Genesis 4:23), painful mortal wounds. A slight sore neglected, may prove of fatal consequences, and so may a slight sin slighted and left unrepented of.
I am beginning to understand the depth of sin and its consequences. In knowing this, I am feeling better equipped to call out to God in those moments of weakness, whatever that weakness may be. Be warned, if the enemy used one tactic and it worked, he will continue as he has, but once we have overcome (by the power of the Holy Spirit), that evil tactic will be dismissed and Satan will hurl another one to take its place! Be on the lookout!!
It is critical that we confess and repent when God brings sin to our attention! Ask God to do this for you. I have found, as I have added this request to my daily prayer, that God gently shows me where I have gone wrong. This is not a pleasant experience; it is actually quite horrific at times. Did I really do that? Oh, Father, I am so sorry!!
Confess and repent as soon as He reveals your sin. I promise you, He will bring you instantly into alignment with Him.
This battle is not ours; it is His!
We must check the posture of our heart when calling out to Him. Do we really want God’s help: His will, plan, and purpose, or are we looking for a quick escape, a reason to keep on doing what we are doing? I know I am guilty of this! What is our motivation behind our call to Him? Are we self-seeking or God-seeking?
Matthew Henry’s Commentary tells of David’s all-over distemper:
Sickness will tame the strongest body and the stoutest spirit. David was famed for his courage and great exploits; and yet, when God contended with him by bodily sickness and the impressions of His wrath upon his mind, his heart fails him, and he becomes weak as water.
Can you see God’s work in action?
As loving parents correct their wayward children, we can trust that God does the very same for His children!
I heard Dr. Charles Stanley say, “He loves us too much to leave us the way we are.” We love our children too much to leave them the way they are!
My heart panteth, my strength faileth me:
As for the light of mine eyes, it also is gone
Sin is not something that one wants to discuss or admit; it is something the Lord is teaching me, and I am compelled to write about it. Confession and repentance is what brings us closer to God. We do not like it when our family and friends mislead and lie to us. Why would God be any different?
We are all born with a sinful heart and it is because of Jesus Christ that we are reconciled back to our Father. Jesus came and died for our sins and it is by the covering of His blood that we are righteous before God, saved and sealed, guaranteed by the Holy Spirit our place in heaven with God.
Matthew Henry’s Commentary. (1960). Matthew henry’s commentary: Zondervan classic reference series in one-volume. Zondervan Academic.