TESTING: ONE, TWO, THREE

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“No, it happened for the glory of God so that the Son of God will receive glory from this.”
John 11:4, NLT

Yesterday, during a quiet moment of prayer, the Lord impressed upon me that I need to begin writing again. Only this time, I’m to listen closely to Him and write exactly what He says and nothing else. Sounds intriguing!

In the book, “My Utmost for His Highest,” Oswald Chambers writes this:

“Faithfulness to Jesus means that I must step out even when and where I can’t see anything. But faithfulness to my own ideas means that I first clear the way mentally. Faith, however, is not intellectual understanding; faith is a deliberate commitment to the Person of Jesus Christ, even when I can’t see the way ahead.”

In the past several months, my journal has been put to the side and my choice in time alone with God has been reading and prayer instead of writing, reading, and prayer. I am certain that it is in writing that my vision of Him is clearest.

I spent time on my porch yesterday morning and I’d like to share what the Lord brought to me:

March 28, 2020

“Not everyone wants to be your friend.
Not everyone likes you.
You are not made to be friends with the whole world.
You can’t make everyone happy.
You can’t bring peace to people.
You won’t find acceptance in this world.
There will be people who care nothing for you.
There will be others who think the world of you.
This should not make you feel sad, inadequate or inferior.
Keep being you! You are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14, NIV).”

My thoughts are pulled to a friend from high school. I have always admired her ability to press on despite circumstances. I’m praying for her this morning. She was always joyful!

I must keep my eyes on God!
“Look!”
He is my Creator, Sustainer, and Savior.

“Give us this day our daily bread…Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven” (Matthew 6: 10, 11, NIV).

With a deeper measure, I see that I am really nothing other than a sickly, sinful human. The pride that I once possessed has been taken from me. My only comfort is God! Oh, there is plenty more pride to go but I’ve come down in rank, gently humbled by the Lord, and shown that I will get nowhere grappling and striving in my own strength. It’s exhausting and boring. How easily I am toppled by disappointments and failure.

It is when I look at the Creator, the One who is in control, that life becomes exhilarating,  surprising and much than just manageable. The things that cause a mix-up within me no longer have power. I give them power by allowing my focus to water negative thoughts and feelings! They grow and I’m moved by their will but I’m learning that if I keep my eyes on God, He will be the One to move me! His will not mine! Which one do I want?

The “C” that I received on my Biology quiz and the termination I was handed at my job, God will use to His benefit. All things meant for evil will be turned to good (Genesis 50:20, NIV). Let Him do what only He can do!

It is difficult to move forward into the things God has for us when seeking friendship and validation from everyone we meet. Our hands will be empty every single time. This fullness of heart only comes from the Father. We can’t find it here in this world and if we do, it is only for a time before it disappears. We all disappear but one thing is for sure, nothing will ever separate us for God’s love…” neither death nor life” (Romans 8:38, NIV).

It isn’t because people are careless, hurtful and selfish. I’m just as guilty! It’s the enemy who rules in this world. We can’t see what it is that we are actually doing and if God is not first in our life, we will never see the truth of who He is and who we are! He is the one that opens our eyes; He makes the necessary changes to our hearts in order to be used fully by Him. We aren’t here to satisfy our needs. We are here to enjoy His heavenly Presence, bring glory to His name, and share His love with everyone (This does not mean a friendly, close relationship with everyone! It simply means love without expectations)!

I’m nearing the end of my prayer time but before finishing, the Lord shows me Lazarus’ Profile. He is featured in the Application Study Bible (NLT). It says:

“Even when the curtain of death was between them, Lazarus responded to Jesus’ voice….When all is said and done, only what God accomplished through us will really matter. We will take little credit. Jesus worked in and around Lazarus just as He does with us. We have Christ’s invitation to participate in His work, but we must not forget that He will do much more than we will know. Meanwhile, we delight in what Christ does with the little we have to offer him.”

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Thank you, Jesus, for hearing our prayers and answering! You are good, faithful and persistent!!

 

 

 

 

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