Keep your eyes on Me, not only for direction but also for empowerment. I never lead you to do something without equipping you for the task. That is why it’s so important to seek My will in everything you do.
Sarah Young, “Jesus Calling”
The last post was entitled, “Sugar” and in it I was disappointed and low in mood because of its hold on me. I felt helpless and trapped. I questioned God and His direction for me. I rationalized consuming and eliminating the poison that rendered me ineffective for Christ and people. I cried out for His loud, clear and direct words because I couldn’t seem to figure it out on my own or perhaps I had already figured it out but needed His distinct voice to set me straight. I didn’t want to give it up but yet I wanted to be free. What a tangled mess I was in!
Romans 7:18-20 perfectly explains my dilemma:
And I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. I want to do what is right, but I can’t. I want to do what is good, but I don’t. I don’t want to do what is wrong, but I do it anyway. But if I do what I don’t want to do, I am not really the one doing wrong, it is sin living in me that does it. I have discovered this principle of life–that when I want to do what is right, I inevitably do what is wrong. I love God’s law with all my heart. But there is another power within me that is at war with my mind. This power makes me a slave to the sin that is still within me. Oh, what a miserable person I am! Who will free me from this life that is dominated by sin and death? Thank God! The answer is in Jesus Christ our Lord. So you see how it is: In my mind I really want to obey God’s law, but because of my sinful nature, I am a slave to sin.
On April 8, 2018, I heard a message by Dr. Charles Stanley called, “Which Direction.” In it he talks about how to move your faith forward. He says that faith is the disposition of your mind. Here is what I wrote in my journal that morning:
“How can I move forward in faith? I need to evaluate my prayers! Am I doubtful? Am I confident? Do I believe that what I pray for will actually happen? Why am I still stuck in food? Speak to my heart God!”
Dr. Stanley also says that we need to “anticipate” our answered prayer. A vital part of our faith is looking forward to it. We can look into the future and see the prayer answered. Here is another journal entry:
“What does my life look like without the stronghold of food? What does my life look like walking in freedom–the things I could do for God and people. What or who is my focus? What is my reason? I want to be an effective, mature Christian. I want to be filled abundantly with the fruits of the Spirit. I want to be wise and connected to my Source. I want to be helpful and encouraging. I want light–a clear path and discernment. I want what God has for me. I see a release of chains. I see freedom. I see light. I see God. I hear God. I see me walking, better yet, running towards God and away from the pile of twisted chains on the floor behind me. Just as I was on the verge of loss and defeat, I am suddenly confident and assured that I am truly free.”
Shortly after this awesome revelation in regards to my prayer life, Jesus blessed me with a vision. He showed me the difference between “light” and “dark.” He brought up moments in my life that I could categorize as light and dark. I sat with my eyes closed reliving the painful and happy memories of my life thus far. I felt the heaviness in my heart, the clouds over my head, and the lack of hope. I also felt a peace, brightness, love, energy for life, and clarity. With eyes still closed, I looked to the left and I felt darkness. I looked to the right and I felt light. I will use this to my advantage, a tool straight from God, to free me from sugar. I have a mental image and a heartfelt feeling that I can safely climb into. When confused over direction, I will close my eyes and allow God to guide me.
He didn’t stop equipping me for freedom right there. He knew that it would take more to set me straight. He knows each of us so well and he’s tailor-made each of our paths. His love for us is fierce and all we need to do is grab on and surrender to His will.
On April 9, 2018, the Lord directed me to Joel Osteen’s daily devotional which is not one that I faithfully follow. No offense and no disrespect intended but this particular morning, the opening Scripture jumped at me. It was from Galatians 6: 7,8:
“Don’t be misled—you cannot mock the justice of God. You will always harvest what you plant. Those who live only to satisfy their own sinful nature will harvest decay and death from that sinful nature. But those who live to please the Spirit will harvest everlasting life from the Spirit. So let’s not get tired of doing what is good. At just the right time we will reap a harvest of blessing if we don’t give up. Therefore, whenever we have the opportunity, we should do good to everyone—especially to those in the family of faith.
“Today’s Word with Joel and Victoria” said this:
“Whether you realize it or not, everything you are experiencing in your life today is a direct result of the seeds you’ve sown in your past. Today, you are planting seeds for the harvest in your future.”
The devotion goes on to say:
“…we have to be deliberate about the seeds we are sowing. We have to wake up every day and set our minds on God’s Word and then choose to speak His truth over our lives. We have to constantly evaluate our actions to make sure we are depositing good seeds so we can reap a good harvest in the future.”
In reading this, I found myself asking:
“Are you sowing good seed or bad seed? Are you “eating” good seed or bad seed?”
What a revelation! A perfect heavenly perspective! Instant faith increase, Praise God!!
My journal entry on this day:
“I will walk in freedom because God has put a calling on me! I cannot be effective when I’m held in bondage. He will free me. There will be no obsession in counting calories or in the numbers on the scale. He wants me free so I will be free. This is His promise and He never breaks a promise. I believe and I receive.”
My prayers changed after this. I had faith that my chains had fallen off! That God had already made a way. I was beginning to see and feel the answered prayer which truly was and still is a wonderful gift.
Look for the evidence of what you’ve requested in prayer. Each bit that is revealed will give you an increase in faith. It will boost you to keep moving forward.
At this point I had placed my life completely in God’s hands. He had prepared me for what was to come next. I wasn’t going to doubt nor take control. I put my complete trust and faith into the freedom that He has given me.
On the morning of April 15, 2018, I received my loud, clear and direct word.
“CUT IT OUT!”
There was no mistaking where it came from. I was barely awake and from out of nowhere came very specific instructions from Almighty God. My mind and heart had no room to rationalize. It was exactly what I had requested. He had prepped and prepared me for this day. I had all I needed to obey.
I turned on the television message by Charles Stanley called, “Noah–Blameless Servant of God and this is some of what I took away from it:
“If God tells me to “cut it out,” God is responsible in fulfilling His promise to me and He will protect me in the process. I will never reach the goal that has been designed just for me and the reason is because of doubt–not believing what God says. He is not responsible for answering my questions. My one responsibility is to obey and trust. He will provide answers when ready. There isn’t a need that He doesn’t supply. He will take care of everything.”
Hebrews 12:1-3 encourages this:
“Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a huge crowd of witnesses to the life of faith, let us strip off every weight that slows us down, especially the sin that so easily trips us up. And let us run with endurance the race God has set before us. We do this by keeping our eyes on Jesus, the champion who initiates and perfects our faith. Now He is seated in the place of honor beside God’s throne.”
God is faithful and He has carried me to DAY NINE, without temptation or struggle! I am truly free!
I urge you to take at least ten minutes out of your day to talk with God. He will make a difference in your life. He never disappoints and He always brings victory. I pray for every person out there, in the Name of Jesus, that you have awesome oneness with God!
This post is dedicated to M.H, M.T and J.J. God bless you for your encouragement because without it, this would not have been written. Your words moved me to make a decision to write and Jesus came along beside me and gave me the words. I thank you! I love you!! And all glory and praise be to God!!