But whenever someone turns to the Lord, the veil is taken away. For the Lord is the Spirit, and wherever the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. So all of us who have had the veil removed can see and reflect the glory of the Lord. And the Lord -who is Spirit- makes us more and more like Him as we are changed into His glorious image.
2 Corinthians 3:16-18
I am so mad right now! I’ve allowed Satan to creep in and steal my joy once again! Why is it that I withdraw as soon as he begins to speak self-doubt and shame into my mind? It always starts with the same issue and he doesn’t stop until I’m paralyzed. I have to say that I’m sick of his games and I need to figure out how to conquer him. I try to do this with control and distraction but this is in my own strength. I am not big enough to overpower him. I need someone with heft and might. Why don’t I ever turn to that strength? Why do I allow the rationalizations of the evil one to disturb my peace. I was doing well! Perspectives were shifting and I was moving in the right direction.
This downward spiral has been tried and true throughout my life. Satan knows my weaknesses and uses them to his advantage. He loves to tell me:
“You can’t help the way you feel. It’s okay, this will happen from time to time. You have stayed your course for a couple of months and it’s perfectly normal to have a little. It’s just a small amount! Don’t you feel low and lonely? This will help. Imagine the taste and the relief you will feel when it hits your mouth and circulates to your brain. It’s just right there. Go for it!”
I dive head first into the forbidden (and it’s forbidden because this is what the adversary can do) and immediately I shift into reverse. My familiar thought patterns that I once believed were my own (I now know that this is not entirely true) have quickly returned:
“You are being silly. This is never going to work. Who do you think you are? This new-found confidence is false. You aren’t doing the work of the Lord. You are making a fool of yourself.”
This harassment goes on and on until I just curl up and let him have his way. I’m so tired of this hateful treatment. I give up and I’m in despair.
Struggling, I reach out for some friendly, Christian guidance:
“You stepped out…this is the devil/upbringing/the ego/the gremlins/your brain (whatever you want to call it) trying to reel you back in. That’s all. It happens every time. Your brain is trying to protect you and you’re freaking out. Either go back, wallow in misery or go through it (AKA forward). It’s just an illusion trying to keep you stuck in the same rut 😉 it actually means you ARE on the right track. The opposition/fear means you’re doing something outside your comfort zone. It doesn’t mean you shrink back. That’s not the answer. The Lord already approves!! Because you did something out of a pure heart and courage and love. And because you’re you.”
I sat down to pray and read God’s Word and I realized that my sister in Christ is absolutely right!
So let me share with you Satan’s stronghold in my life. It’s food. It’s my weakness and it has been for such a long time. In prayer, the Lord showed me that food does not render me ineffective for Him. It’s what I do to myself that renders me ineffective.
A slip-up can result in a separation from Him which is deadly to our intimate relationship, my spiritual growth, and my service. I become anxious, stressed, frustrated, and depressed. I cannot hear Jesus and be a representative of the Good News under these conditions.
This life that I’ve been given isn’t about my gluttony at mealtime or the candy that I inhaled without even thinking. It’s not about Weight Watcher Points or whatever “diet” that I’m following at the time. It’s about what I am doing for God? I don’t have to stay away from the foods I enjoy. I’m not bad when I have something that I think I shouldn’t. God isn’t mad at me and lashing out.
This is PETTY and His plans are bigger!! The interpretation in Colossians 3:20-23 (NLT) says this:
Our salvation does not depend on our own discipline and rule keeping but on the power of Christ’s death and resurrection.
Do not let Satan take your blessings! Don’t let him interrupt the work that Jesus is doing in your life.
Whether we come to Him in boldness or in weakness He is there to heal, guide, love and save. It doesn’t matter who we are or where we come from. He is there and nothing can separate us from His love!!
I will use Revelation 20:10 as a reminder of God’s Victory:
Then the devil, who had deceived them, was thrown into the fiery lake of burning sulfur, joining the beast and false prophet. There they will be tormented day and night forever and ever.
Racinda…thank you for sharing. I am so proud of your accomplishments in all you’re doing for the Lord. Allowing God to use you to bless so many people is a huge reward in Jesus’s eyes.
I too have fell into the trick of Satan by at times shutting down and putting a cement wall up between myself and society due to suffering from PTSD. It is not easy suffering from many catatrophic events in my life from young childhood to up to about four years ago.
I pray all the time asking for God to help me to trust again and to put my guard down. But here comes Satan reminding me once again that if someone tries to become a friend too fast that they must have an hidden agenda. Or a person who looks and asks a certain way must have unhealthy sexual thoughts.
For the sake of a sane mind I must stay and keep my focus on God at all times and not allow Satan to have power over my thoughts.
Everyone in the world can’t be bad. This is a continuous work in progress for me and I love that our Heavenly Father loves me so much that he speaks through others to show me how and what I need to change in my life. I am a strong woman in Christ and will continue to grow. Love you too Jesus.
Quin…thank you for opening yourself up to us! You are fearless! We are in the hands of God and we will be victorious. We have to trust and keep moving forward in His strength. I’m so proud of your accomplishments! You inspire and encourage me and I only hope I can do the same for you. God bless you friend!!