Two weeks ago, my family was deeply impacted by a horrific boating accident. A distant family member had been compromised greatly and is currently being cared for in the ICU of a local hospital. I am praying diligently, along with many others, for a full recovery. My daughter sits with her loved one and his family most days and is sharing updates with me as news comes in. The evening of July 19, 2018, she sent a text to her father which sunk my heart. I surmised that the outcome wasn’t looking good.
My mind was immediately filled with many scenarios of the accident, the man’s condition, and my entire being ached for him, his family and friends. I am completely hopeless and helpless in this crisis and can do nothing but submit myself to God. I get on my knees to pray.
Nothing but silence! I was unable!
“I’m sorry, Father, but I have no words in this moment. I’m deeply troubled and disheartened. Forgive me!”
I reluctantly climbed into bed and settled in for the night. I was slightly worried that my sadness would still be present as I cared for my elderly residents the following day. I didn’t want this for them. At that moment, Jesus reminded me that He is the one in control of the situation at the ICU and that His plans are for good.
I won’t go into intimate details of the conversation at this time because the subject matter is extremely sensitive. I will say, that after Jesus spoke to me, my sadness was totally lifted. I felt an enormous relief and was able to fall asleep quickly and peacefully.
The next morning during quiet time the Lord showed me Philippians 4:19:
And the same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus.
I like the way Charles Stanley explains this verse in his daily devotion called, “God’s Promise to Provide.” He states that many of God’s provisions are spiritual. We have the tendency to pray for things that are physical, which is okay but Pastor Stanley says that God is more concerned with the condition of our spirit. Our trials assist in conforming us to the image of Christ and some difficulties may remain until they have accomplished God’s good purposes in us.
This was a much-needed confirmation in my time of heartbreak. My spirit was low and crushed. I felt complete disappointment and discouragement. I am faithfully praying for a miracle, and now I’m unsure of the outcome. Doubt overriding my trust in God! This was not in His plan for me last night. He compassionately and lovingly ministered to my heart and today I woke refreshed, refilled and more than ready to serve.
Later in the day, I had a conversation with one of my favorite residents, Alice. She is ninety-eight years old and sharp as a tack. We have wonderful chats and on this particular afternoon, I found myself telling her about the boating accident and how it has affected me and my family. I told her all the delicate details of my conversation with Jesus last night. Alice was overcome by emotion at my story and seemed to be at a loss for words for a few seconds. I sat silently and waited patiently for her response. I could see that she was thinking due to the rise of her forehead, the size of her eyes, and the grin on her face.
She leaned in and asked, “How can I hear Jesus?”
“I encouraged her to continue praying and talking with Jesus each day and throughout the day–keep listening to your Bible.”
“How come you can hear Him and I can’t and what’s it like” she questioned.
“Alice, I don’t honestly know why He speaks to me or how it happens. He just appears and He always takes me by surprise. It’s like a mental conversation that you would have with yourself but instead of it taking place in your mind, it takes place in the depths of your core. It’s kind of electric, it’s somewhat booming, it stands out and you can’t help but notice.”
I could see her countenance change. I saw her relief as she took in this good news of Jesus Christ. Both blessed by this conversation, she told me that she loved me VERY much and I told her the same!!
The next morning during my quiet time. I got the answer that Alice and I were desperate to hear which came straight from God via Charles Stanley:
“Why would God speak to me? Who am I? Why would God work in my life?”
“Because He loves you. Because He wants a personal relationship with you. He wants to change your eternal destiny. He wants to give you life at its very best. That’s why He is willing to speak to you. That why He’s willing to forgive you. That’s why He’s NOT willing to turn you away.”
He speaks to all of us and now I know why!!
I can’t wait to share this with Alice!!