“It wasn’t the coal that cleansed him, but God. In response, Isaiah submitted himself entirely to God’s service. No matter how difficult his task would be, he said, ‘Here I am, send me.’ The painful cleansing process was necessary before Isaiah could fulfill the task to which God was calling him. Before we accept God’s call to speak for him to those around us, we must be cleansed as Isaiah was, confessing our sins and submitting to God’s control. Letting God purify us may be painful, but we must be purified so that we can truly represent God, who is pure and holy.
Isaiah 6:5-8 (NLT Interpretation)
July 8, 2018 (Quiet time before work/Journal Entry)
Is this the process that I’m currently going through? Is God removing all things that aren’t of Him, so that I’m empty for Him? Will He fill me with heavenly gifts? Is my purpose on the other side of this uncomfortable revealing?
I pray that I remain in His Will–that I do not hold up the cleansing process by disobedience. Let me hear, let me be bold and courageous, let me obey! Help me, Holy Spirit, complete the small assignments so I can get to the big assignment. I want to be empty of myself. I trust God to care for me as I go through this phase of my Christian walk. I know that growth and glory are in my future.
With coffee and lunch in hand, I kissed my husband and my pup goodbye and headed to work. I clocked in and had conversation with several residents and coworkers. As I began pulling medication for my residents, I took notice of an individual walking back and forth in the hallway that I was in. He was quite preoccupied with his task at hand which was removing furniture from a resident’s room. In the hopes of avoiding the newly painted walls, his struggle with the overloaded dolly was apparent. He is determined and dedicated to keep this assisted living community in tip-top shape. Job complete, he headed back to the vacant resident’s room. I heard deep within me, the whisper of the Holy Spirit. There was no denying nor rationalizing where that direction came from.
“I want you to go find this man that you’ve been tuned into and pray for healing.”
My reaction to His words were with fear and trembling. My heart did a somersault, my hands started to shake and sweat; the concentration that I did have, now lost. All I could think of was my time with Jesus this morning. I asked for this moment. What was I going to do with it? I denied him once in this area of prayer, and I wasn’t going to do it again!
I opened the medication cart, dropped the inhalers that I had clutched in my hand, into the drawer and locked the cart. I felt myself walking towards the vacant room and was somewhat shocked at my courage. It certainly didn’t come from me!
I could hear the deafening sound of the vacuum cleaner so I paused and then slowly opened the door. The expression that came from his face was of concern but in order to hear me, he had to shut the annoying machine off. In the opposing silence of the room, I blurted out:
“As you were walking by me, I heard the Holy Spirit tell me to come pray for your legs!”
He smiled and stated, “I could use it!”
I boldly walked over to him and asked if it was okay to place my hand on his arm. He was sweaty from his hard work, but I didn’t care. I needed to feel the flesh of my Christian brother. It was the spiritual connection that I needed to obey what God had told me to do.
I can’t even remember what it was that I really said which is maddening in itself. I long for my times of prayer with another to be remembered. I want to sink into the moment with ease, not with anxiety and fear. This is a time of reverence not opposition! I am calling out to Almighty God on behalf of another human being. I’m praying for the presence of God in a situation. This should be a beautiful moment. It isn’t! It gives me great stress and anxiety and when I’ve finished, the devil is all over me.
Romans 8:26, 27 says that the Holy Spirit prays on our behalf. He is our Helper, and I do have faith that the Lord heard our prayer and that He will answer. In my inadequacy and weakness, the Lord is strong. I took a huge leap of faith because I love Jesus, and I don’t want to miss out on Him. Plus, I would be so grateful to see healing for this man of God.
And the Holy Spirit helps us in our weakness. For example, we don’t know what God wants us to pray for. But the Holy Spirit prays for us with groanings that cannot be expressed in words. And the Father who knows all hearts knows what the Spirit is saying, for the Spirit pleads for us believers in harmony with God’s own will.
You just never know when the Holy Spirit will announce His presence. I had prayed to be prepared and equipped to handle every God-given opportunity. I prayed to be bold and courageous. I prayed for the strength to obey–a moment that could be used to glorify Him and an opportunity for me and another to grow spiritually. God does hear our prayer, and He does answer!!